thank you so much for stopping on over to my new little blog. i decided to make this blog as an outlet for me to share my insecurities, my struggles, my past experiences, and the new life i am trying to create after being plagued with low self esteem and eating disorders my whole life. i wrote out my story on a tab at the top of the blog sharing the secret i had kept for many years and never planned on telling. there you can read about some of the things i tried to do to feel good about myself and the different roads i took to feel beautiful. the idea of having it out there for the world to see is terrifying and makes me nauseous to an extent but i know that there is no reason to keep it hidden any longer. after years and years of shame and guilt i decided a few months ago to share my secret with my lifelong best friend. she encouraged me to make a diary or blog about all my past experiences and share them with others who might have or might be going through some of the same struggles.
so here i am.
this blog is designed to help me cope with a battle i have been fighting for as long as i can remember and for me to share inspirations and encouragements i have found along the way. i would also like to use this blog to write out any struggles i might be suffering through and have this as an outlet and accountability partner to keep me from ever going back down the road i was on.
lastly, i hope you will stay for a while. take off a load and if you feel it, share with me some of the insecurities and doubts you have felt. i know whats its like to hate yourself. i know what its like to not look in a mirror for days because the person you see is a monster. i know what its like to hurt and weep. i know the pain. and though i might not know the answer or cure i know that those places are evil and will destroy the beautiful and wonderful person that you were made me be.
i pray that any of you hurting and struggling find peace and that one day you will be free of the chains that bind you. have a wonderful day my dears and remember: if God wanted to you to be different, He would have made you that way.